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the underworld, Philippines
I love sunsets, reading books, sleeping, listening to secondhand serenade, listening to Tigerlily, watching sunsets, drinking coke, messing with photoshop, daydreaming, perking up the class, internet cafes, beaches, cafes in davao, Coke floats in McdO, cappucino at Zagu, writing poems, fighting the people in charge, defending human rights, eating noodles, it when pipol smile back, francis kong and bob ong books, talking to people, doing things for others, annoying others, writing before going to sleep sleeping late, playin spider solitaire

Thursday, July 7, 2016

The Summer Ending.

It was no secret. Yes, I went to Samal. Yes, I went to see him. Even if I was really seething at him, I still went to see him. It's very difficult to understand what I want sometimes. But at that time, He was all I wanted, more than anything in the world. 

We talked. Apparently, I came to understand that we were going nowhere. I don't really understand the kind of connection that we have, but it felt so real. The longer we talked though, the more I felt that my presence was no longer needed. I would have really wanted to stay. But, he seemed perfectly fine with himself that I sensed that I was never needed in the first place. That was when I decided to leave. Fighting back tears, I stared at his sleeping form, trying to will myself to just let the feelings go. However, I couldn't. It was so hard. We had been so happy. I wondered what went wrong. Everything went wrong, inevitably. So I left. 

He texted me - told me he missed me. My pride kept me from going back. I sat on a steel bench at the port and cried til I realized that people are already staring. I wanted to go back. But he didn't choose me. He wanted his freedom. I wasn't wanted at all. That's why I left. 

It's been six days now. Apparently, my absence wasn't felt. He seemed okay with his online games and free time. I think I'm pushing him a bit too much. So it's probably time to stop this insanity. 

Now comes the hard part. How do I leave it all behind? Where should I start? What do I do now? How should I forget? 

I will try. That's the only thing that I can do. But, as I try to finish this ridiculously insane article, he crosses my mind again. Now all I can think of is his beautiful smile the last time I kissed him goodbye and how much it ached because he never tried. I shut my eyes and heaved a sigh. I wouldn't cry. I'm actually happy for him. He finally knew what he wanted. It just wasn't me.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

That Coke Commercial

Coke's 2014 Super Bowl Commercial

So, everyone on facebook, seemed to be talking about this. I checked out the commercial and it is amazing!

Looped!

Somebody was begging me for a list of my favorite songs for some time now. That would be too much work since i have a lot of them. So, I decided to list some here. But, do take note, that this is not a complete list. Most of these are pretty memorable ones. So here goes: 

1. Hey there Delilah - plain white t's
2. Kiss me slowly
3. Iris - sleeping with sirens
4. Prettiest Friend - Jason Mraz
5. Secrets 
6. Marry me - Train
7. Regal - Spongecola
8. Everytime - Simple Plan
9. You're beautiful - James Blunt
10. She was mine - AJ Rafael
11. Rain - Breaking Benjamin
12. Over - Blake Shelton
13.  Daydreams - Breanne Durren
14. She will be loved - Maroon5
15. Closing Time - semisonic
16. 3AM - Matchbox 20
17. Best of Me - Sum41
18. Stars - Grace Potter and the Nocturnals
19. If the moon fell down tonight - Chase Coy
20. Just a dream
21. This side - nickelcreek
22. Northern Lights - Cider Sky
23. Beyond Words - Tenth Avenue
24. My favorite two - Yael Meyer
25. Lost in space - Sitti

So. prince...
You asked for this. I hope you'd find all of them. 


Tuesday, January 21, 2014

everyday with u. :)

Kahit gaano pa karaming coke ang inumin ko,
hindi ko parin makukuha ang tunay na
happiness kung wala ka sa tabi ko. 




Friday, January 17, 2014

Happiness List!

Here we go again. We know the drill, right? This goes whenever you're feeling down or you're not feeling too good about yourself. Jot down all the things, events, people that remind you of pure bliss.

So, we'll start:

1. New slippers. Because they fit just right.
2. 5AM breakfasts in mcdo. because it's breaking dawn.
3. Expensive Taxi rides. because it just feels like home.
4. New books. to keep me sane.
5. Old movies I'd watch all over again. they're immortal.
6. Facebook. because reality bites. Hard.
7. Large coke! so i can quit.
8. Quitting on large coke. so i can start again. 
9. old photographs. for faded memories.
10. Newspapers. para brayt daw.
11. Tight Hugs. :(
12. Comforters. because it's the next best thing to a tight hug.
13. Shades. for comfort.
14. Late-night talks. you'll know what i mean.
15. Walking. 
16. Jeepney love stories. and noisy smacks. and whispering. and all of the above.
17. Superheroes. 
18. Forevers. 

Thursday, January 9, 2014

New Year... New updates!

sooner or later, we wonder why we gave up. truth is, everyone knows...

ALMOST IS NEVER ENOUGH.