The Summer Ending.

It was no secret. Yes, I went to Samal. Yes, I went to see him. Even if I was really seething at him, I still went to see him. It's very difficult to understand what I want sometimes. But at that time, He was all I wanted, more than anything in the world. 

We talked. Apparently, I came to understand that we were going nowhere. I don't really understand the kind of connection that we have, but it felt so real. The longer we talked though, the more I felt that my presence was no longer needed. I would have really wanted to stay. But, he seemed perfectly fine with himself that I sensed that I was never needed in the first place. That was when I decided to leave. Fighting back tears, I stared at his sleeping form, trying to will myself to just let the feelings go. However, I couldn't. It was so hard. We had been so happy. I wondered what went wrong. Everything went wrong, inevitably. So I left. 

He texted me - told me he missed me. My pride kept me from going back. I sat on a steel bench at the port and cried til I realized that people are already staring. I wanted to go back. But he didn't choose me. He wanted his freedom. I wasn't wanted at all. That's why I left. 

It's been six days now. Apparently, my absence wasn't felt. He seemed okay with his online games and free time. I think I'm pushing him a bit too much. So it's probably time to stop this insanity. 

Now comes the hard part. How do I leave it all behind? Where should I start? What do I do now? How should I forget? 

I will try. That's the only thing that I can do. But, as I try to finish this ridiculously insane article, he crosses my mind again. Now all I can think of is his beautiful smile the last time I kissed him goodbye and how much it ached because he never tried. I shut my eyes and heaved a sigh. I wouldn't cry. I'm actually happy for him. He finally knew what he wanted. It just wasn't me.

Samal Island Getaway with the Southern Ambassadors

That Coke Commercial

Coke's 2014 Super Bowl Commercial

So, everyone on facebook, seemed to be talking about this. I checked out the commercial and it is amazing!

Looped!

Somebody was begging me for a list of my favorite songs for some time now. That would be too much work since i have a lot of them. So, I decided to list some here. But, do take note, that this is not a complete list. Most of these are pretty memorable ones. So here goes: 

1. Hey there Delilah - plain white t's

2. Kiss me slowly

3. Iris - sleeping with sirens

4. Prettiest Friend - Jason Mraz

5. Secrets 

6. Marry me - Train

7. Regal - Spongecola

8. Everytime - Simple Plan

9. You're beautiful - James Blunt

10. She was mine - AJ Rafael

11. Rain - Breaking Benjamin

12. Over - Blake Shelton

13.  Daydreams - Breanne Durren

14. She will be loved - Maroon5

15. Closing Time - semisonic

16. 3AM - Matchbox 20

17. Best of Me - Sum41

18. Stars - Grace Potter and the Nocturnals

19. If the moon fell down tonight - Chase Coy

20. Just a dream

21. This side - nickelcreek

22. Northern Lights - Cider Sky

23. Beyond Words - Tenth Avenue

24. My favorite two - Yael Meyer

25. Lost in space - Sitti

So. prince...

You asked for this. I hope you'd find all of them. 

everyday with u. :)

Kahit gaano pa karaming coke ang inumin ko,
hindi ko parin makukuha ang tunay na
happiness kung wala ka sa tabi ko. 

Happiness List!

Here we go again. We know the drill, right? This goes whenever you're feeling down or you're not feeling too good about yourself. Jot down all the things, events, people that remind you of pure bliss.

So, we'll start:

1. New slippers. Because they fit just right.

2. 5AM breakfasts in mcdo. because it's breaking dawn.

3. Expensive Taxi rides. because it just feels like home.

4. New books. to keep me sane.

5. Old movies I'd watch all over again. they're immortal.

6. Facebook. because reality bites. Hard.

7. Large coke! so i can quit.

8. Quitting on large coke. so i can start again. 

9. old photographs. for faded memories.

10. Newspapers. para brayt daw.

11. Tight Hugs. :(

12. Comforters. because it's the next best thing to a tight hug.

13. Shades. for comfort.

14. Late-night talks. you'll know what i mean.

15. Walking. 

16. Jeepney love stories. and noisy smacks. and whispering. and all of the above.

17. Superheroes. 

18. Forevers. 

New Year... New updates!

sooner or later, we wonder why we gave up. truth is, everyone knows...

ALMOST IS NEVER ENOUGH.

love.. love.. love

I hope we'll always feel this way...
and in my heart I know you'll always stay...

Smiles

Try to find what makes you happy

and soon,

You will end up with someone 

who will see you completely

without ever wanting anything

except to be a part of you.

-best moments with one of my favorite persons in the world-

Happy Birthday to me!

It's finally done and I'm officially 22 years old... I thought over the past year and realized I had so many things to be thankful for. That time we spent at Bullokan and Puyo made me think things over... So, I'm officially 22. It's time to put the glasses on and act normal again. I still can't get over it! But, I'm super happy! <3 <3 <3

Special shoutouts to guys who made my day extra special:

Gwapo: words aren't enough for everything! But, thanks for all of it.
Kapwa: Dili ko ka-explain. Happy lang jud ko sa inyong friendship! I love u prens!
Nj, Ayana and Yvette: Kahit Busy, u still find time for me.
Everyone who texted and called: Thank u! thank u so much!

Fallin for you...

Maybe I should keep this to myself,
but I'm tired of holding it inside my head.

I've been spending all my time just thinking 'bout you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm falling for you.

Been so long since I've been this happy!
Especially when he looks at me with that big grin on his face. I could fall over and over again! :-))

Inside my lens

The best camera is the eye, the best lens is the iris, and the best photo is our memory. Indeed, before humans invented the best quality cameras, He had already designed the best one. And keep in mind, not only just a camera but a walking one. Take good care of your camera, it is the best in the world.

movies!

Thank Macelle Gay for her 16 gig flashdisk! I've got 5 new movies plus Deacon's The Hangover 2. Yeah!

Tomorrow would be the best day of my life! :) Good night everybody!

White Flag? NEVER!

I'm not giving in...

Seriously, I knew this wasn't worth it. I'd better build up. the career I want. Then after this, it's crunch time. 

I kept praying that things would be back to normal (defined: in a relationship, happy, inspired). 

Then, I found I had it all along.

1. I have relationships

friends who have always been there.

2. I'm happy with my job 

(even if it meant sleepless nights trying to come up with a decent grade for each kid...)

3. I'm inspired by the people who still believe in me despite the mistakes I make.

I guess it's never too late to learn. We all have to go through a few bruises first.

The nurse 

He's almost The One. Unfortunately, there's this little hitch that we'd only be friends so only time can tell.

The engineer 

He'll stay as he is. Obviously, its anything but real...

The Freaky Ex-boyfriend 

I hope he goes away now. 

I'm going to class now. It's another xit story, but at least, I get paybacks.

ate rhea and I

Confusion...Chaos

3 hours on the bus.

my head on his shoulder. My hand on his lap.

Our music playing.

The wind on my face.

What more could I ask for?

Unfortunately, we wouldn't be together.

u can't be too happy...

Of course, I love it that he gives me special attention lately.

It's just that I (well, all of us) know fully well that he's just been acting like that ever since he got the idea that I liked him (thanks to amo,anyway!)

So, there'll be no assuming for now. I'm just happy with the way things are. It wouldn't hurt anything anyway.

It's not that I have feelings at all.

But, I'm going to make a poem for him. That would be one of my projects for this month. It's not that I'd be letting him read it, but he will... Soon! So, good luck to that... :D

Hopefully, I would remember to check on the other responsibilities i have. Thank you for keeping me sane, Juniz... <3

Pure Happiness!

their faces on my facebook

So, I was supposed to be at Samal Island tonight with the rest of the family. Unfortunately, I can't go because I don't have money left. So, I'm stuck here with the kapwa. Buti nalang, the guys love me so much that they still went with me even though it was raining.

The other guys hate me for being with these bunch, but I don't care. I'm happy with all of them anyway. They can accuse me of everything they want - but that's all they can do. They can talk about me all they want but it won't touch me, because I know something that they don't. I believe, I can be happy without making them happy.

Somehow, we realize that we don't have to please everybody. What matters is what really makes us happy... and as long as we're not doing anything wrong, i think it's okay.

So far, I guess I'm doing great and I've got a lot to thank God for. These guys are no.1 on my list. :) Happy September everybody!

New playlist for this month

Here are my list of songs for september (unofficially!) I hope you guys like it:

1. Officially missing you by Tamia
2. All the small things by Blink 18
3. Coffeeshop soundtrack by All time low
4. Gone by Bei Maejor
5. Hey daydreamer by Somedaydream
6. If a song could get me you by Marit Larsen
7. Kasama kang tumanda by Toni Gonzaga
8. Opposites Attract by Juris
9. Perfect Two - Auburn
10. I dont wanna wait - Soja

thoughts...

You'll definitely be in my dreams tonight.

Unfortunately,

we won't be together.

So, don't ask for it.

Songs on my playlist

So, here's the new batch of songs on my playlist (which i got from Yvette). I have Richard Clayderman on piano too but i don't really listen much to it. Most of the theme for this playlist is love and letting go. Stupid facts which I can;t get over with myself. So here goes the top 20:

1. Faithfully - the Glee cover
2. Take a bow - Lea Michele
3. Bluer than blue - Michael Johnson? (i'm not really sure)
4. Over the rainbow - Glee cover again
5. An updated version of Me - KC Concepcion (I was thinking of making this number 1)
6. Then - Brad Paisley (in love all over again! :')
7. Beauty and Madness - Fra Lippo Lippi
8. Later - Fra Lippo Lippi (still)
9. Forever Blue - Jed Madela
10. Its by Toni Gonzaga. I dont know the title...